Right now I feel an overwhelming amount of happiness in my heart. Lets start from the beginning. For the past few days I have been anxious about going to Korea, worrying about when I am going to get my notice appointment since it seems like others had already received theirs. I know I tend to be a worrier but even so God still blesses me.
Today I woke up, and I had just started eating breakfast and checking out the latest episode of Triple. Just going about my day as usual, and then as I am about to take a bite of my cereal my grandma walk in with a smile on her face, and in her hands is the FedEx package. If someone could have taken a picture of my face it would have been quite the image.
I looked at it and saw it was from Korea and I totally went crazy, laughing and smiling, and dancing around my wonderful Grandma. I was on cloud nice, and right now it has settled to a simmering feeling of being on Cloud 9.
나는 행복하다!!! So very very happy and thankful to God for his continued mercy and blessing upon my life. I am so happy I feel kind of tearful, I know a bit extreme, but if you knew me you'd understand that getting just a little bit closer to my dream/goal is something worth shedding tears for.
Thank you Lord, for loving me and watching over from me. I guess you must have heard me singing your praises as I walked home yesterday.
Let me leave you with a song I am currently in love with. It is from the Triple OST and if you have not checked out that drama then you need to start. There is something so peaceful about this song.
I am not a patient person at all. To say I was one would be an utter lie. So this whole waiting process to go to Seoul is driving me nuts. I hate waiting because it leaves too much room for thinking, analyzing, and questioning.
Ever since I graduated I have had plenty of time to think about my decision to go to Seoul to teach and the fear is starting to crawl in. I keep thinking what the heck am I doing and wondering if this is the right decision. Other times I have a deep belief that I am doing what I need to do to grow into my own person. I know that this might not be what my family wants for me, but I know that you cannot live your life through the eyes of others even if they are your loved ones.
I have to pursue my own happiness, and this is something I have been wanting to do for a while now. Yes, I am scared, and yes I don't know if this is the right decision...but isn't the point to get there and find out? You are never going to be completely sure about it but you have to trust yourself and take a risk. Isn't that what living is all about! I keep trying to tell myself not to rush anything and to enjoy my time in the states because although it feels like time is passing slowly in a matter of 2 months my whole world is going to change hopefully for the better.
I just feel kind of bored and spend my days researching life in Korea, getting everything together,and dreading the idea of packing all my stuff into 2 suitcases. I like clothes and shoes and purses and I like all of my stuff so packing is going to be a pain in the butt! I keep telling myself things will all work out and you know what it always does.
I am a worrier but I know that God always comes through for me! I sent my documents to Korea Connections yesterday and it cost me $60. Getting things ready to go to Korea is not cheap so prepare for all the little fees that add up when you are making the decision to come to South Korea. I just want things to get rolling. I want to get my visa so I can buy my plane tickets, and make sure I get to see my sister in Florida before I leave. I want to buy all the things I think I will need there.
I just want it to feel more real. I keep thinking what if something goes wrong and I end up not leaving August 21...that is a scary thought. I am excited and nervous to do this but even so I am taking a deep breathe and doing it. Life is supposed to be about experiences, mistakes, and growth and I feel like I am a late bloomer in all those areas. Playing it safe leaves me wanting more and I hope that I have the strength to do this and do it well.
May the Lord guide my way and make things smooth for me. I just want it to be August already!
I got into Korean dramas my sophomore year of college and from there I became hooked and absolutely would rather watch a Korean drama than any American show. American entertainment could learn quite a few things from the Korean entertainment world.
You could say my love for Korean dramas sparked my interest in the language, culture, and eventually made me want to change my life and move to Seoul to teach and see life in new eyes.
It all started with...
This was my very first Korean drama...and I wish it hadn't taken me so long to discover how awesome K-dramas are. After watching this drama I wanted more, and eventually got into Japanese dramas (Hana Yori Dango, Kimi Wa Petto) and Taiwanese dramas (MARS, ISWAK, Devil Beside You) and my love for all thing Asian grew from just the entertainment side to the language and of course the culture.
I love the passion of the Korean language. I just love how it flows off the tongue...I don't know but for me listening to people talk in Korean or listening to Korean music is wonderful.
Alrighty on to My Firsts... K-drama: Full House K-movie: 200 Pounds of Beauty K-crush: Rain K-forum: Soompi (best site ever for all things Korean) K-blog: Javabeans Korean words: Anyounghaseyo (안녕하세요)...Kamsamnida (감사합니다) Korean phrase I love: Do you want to die?(죽을래)....lol when they say it in Korean I just love the way it sounds.
*Favorite Korean Dramas* Soulmate Goong Golden Bride Dal Ja's Spring
*Favorite Korean Music* Nell Epik High Loveholic Clazziquai Big Bang
Note: A lot of people ask me what is the point of listening to music when you don't understand what their saying. My response is the language that is music has no limitations. I love the way it sounds, and I will usually try and find an English translation. But for me it doesn't matter so much that I don't understand the words, but that the song impacts me. The beauty of music is the freedom to listen to it.
I'm excited to experience Korean culture firsthand and not from my computer screen. Best ~Lola O.~
“As I get older, I want to be someone who feels happiness in little things. When I was younger, I had a lot of ambitions and was able to do a lot of things so it was okay, but I don’t want to live like that forever. I think it’s good to be satisfied with the decisions I make with life at that particular time, and live simply. That’s all.”-Juni
"And that’s why we travel, or why we should. Not to forget our worries, which will follow us anywhere – across oceans, up mountains, through deserts, down every crowded alleyway and boulevard of the city – but simply to be somewhere else. To exist, as always; but to exist in different surroundings. What happens after that, we can never really predict.... -Unknown-
"There is not one big cosmic meaning for all, there is only the meaning we each give to our life, an individual meaning, an individual plot, like an individual novel, a book for each person." Anais Nin
"We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls." -Anais Nin
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