Fall is my favorite season, because I like all the colors and layers people wear
My students still think I got an adjumma perm
The state of my enviroment shows the state of my mind/life
I'm debating whether to be a guidance couselor, a therapist, or something else in that arena
6-1 is my worst class. I'm looking forward to them going to middle school.
My mom is going to be 50 on the 14th
After teaching here I like kids more than I did
Kraft mayonnaise is sorely missed right now. I miss sandwiches so much!!!
Lately I've been drinking milk tea more than usual, probably because of Hong Kong
I feel the most free when I am...dancing or writing
I'm a 260 in Korean shoes which makes me unable to buy all the lovely shoes I see
I miss you Tiffany oma :)
When I was a little kid before the lawyer/judge years I wanted to be a therapist
Everyday I read GMH, Six Billion Secrets, LGMH, because they remind me that the choices I make, the words I say, the attitude I have can lift someone up or break someone down
I like sushi that is cooked not raw
I thought Tokyo would be more, but I think my expectations were to high because of Seoul
The only time I like to listen to rap is when I'm driving, exercising, or dancing
Sometimes when I'm teaching I have that feeling of wanting to be a kid again
I'm currently listening to Mumm-ra's "Light Up This Room"
My foreign neighbors both moved out so I have no clue who lives by me
I've been wearing red everyday lately to remind myself to be strong when and where it counts
The lady I bought plantains from has disappeared to somewhere
The other day I told one of my best friends that all I really want in life is to be happy everyday, and to make others happy everyday. That's the simple yet complicated truth.
I write everything down because if I don't I feel like I'll forget it
My students are constantly trying to capture me in a picture or a drawing. The results are hilarious.
It wasn't until I started teaching that I realized with out a doubt the power and beauty of being someone's teacher. Whether in a professional or personal way, being someone's teacher is a great honor.
Lately I've developed the habit of making a wish whenever I chance upon the time being the same digits. Most of time it ends up being 2:22 when I look at the time.
My mom is 50 years old today. Happy Birthday to my lovely mom!!!
I'm becoming really lazy these days. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's just me. But it's getting out of control and my neat freak self is having none of that.
Little by little I'm finding simple things I like, just by taking a chance and trying it out, and I like that. Start with the small everyday risks and eventually I'll be able to jump on the big ones.
I was reading my Mighty List the other day in my journal, and it was amazing to realize I'd already made some of those goals/dreams/hopes/wishes happen.
I'm really into Sungkyunkwan Scandal these days...seriously I cannot imagine a life without kdramas!
I had a student say F*** you today, but he didn't understand what he'd done wrong. What was really great about the situation was that the other students told him why it was wrong, and called him out for it. I didn't have to, it made me go all happy inside.
Currently listening to Massive Attack's "Teardrop"
I've been really forgetful today. I thought it was lunch time when it was only 4th period. I even offed the lights and made my way to the door, until my co was like what are you doing.
It feels like a Friday...and that's a good kind of feeling to have:)
Honestly, you never really know what life is going to throw at you. Life is messy, unpredictable, and like my mom says, "like a roller coaster life has its ups and downs." We can only wish for more ups than downs, and we must try to enjoy the ride.
I leave for Korea in 2 days, but there is so much craziness going on right now that I just feel guilty for leaving. Yesterday, my mom got into a car accident. She went to pick up her car from getting fixed and on her way home she got into a car accident. Thank God, the damage is minimal and more importantly she is safe and well, but things like this just freak me out.
Of all times, this happens now. This happens to my mom before I am going to go away for a year. It makes me worried and apprehensive of what is going to happen when I am not around. I cannot control anything, and we cannot predict these kinds of things. But that doesn't change it from making us edgy. I'm just thankful it wasn't worse and that my mom is well in body even though her mind is stressed.
So like always I am going to leave it in prayer and ask that God continues to watch over all of us no matter where we are. In moments like this I think about Jeremiah 29:11 and it reminds me to trust in God, and stay strong in these kinds of moments. I am just feeling down right now. Instead of enjoying the last few days together, this kind of stuff happens and overshadows everything else.
I am jut glad she will be able to use my car till hers gets fixed. I am thankful that it wasn't worse,and I just pray that God protects her for me always and forever. Sorry for the somber mood. I just needed to let my thoughts escape my mind for a moment. I am leaving in two days, but with a heavier heart. My mom is my best friend/role-model...so being away from her when she needs me isn't an easy thing to do.
I am really learning that you just have to go with the flow and hope for the best. I was anxiously waiting to get my passport back from the Korean Consulate in LA and I had hoped it would come on Tuesday, so when it didn't show I was like okay they must not have mailed it yet. I paid $17.50 to overnight it so I was like it better get here on Wednesday at the latest.
Just as I decided to go about my day, the doorbell rings and my cousins are like the mailman is here for you. Previously, I had told them I was waiting for a super important package. So when it came they were as excited as me until they saw it was just my passport and said that was the super important package. If only they knew what getting my passport/visa meant...lol
Everyone was smiling and happy because I was so happy about it. I think the happier I am the harder it is for my mom. Just as it is becoming more real to me that I am going to Seoul, it is becoming more real to her that I am leaving. I am going to try and tone down my excitement because I know this is hard on her but she wants me to be happy.
Now everything feels real. That little visa stamp in my passport is my passage to Korea and I am very happy and excited for it. I just bought my plan tickets for $516 one-way which is not a bad deal since a few weeks ago they were around $700:)...I hope SMOE reimburses A.S.A.P once I get there.
With about 5 weeks left before I leave on August 21, 2009 time seems to be moving really fast now whereas last week I thought it was going so slow. I guess that is because I don't have to wait anymore. Everything is flowing nicely so now all I need to do is take care of things here, pack, and board that plane to Seoul.
Even with all the excitement there is still fear. I think it is fine to be scared, probably even smart because it keeps me from flying to high on Cloud 9 and makes me think about this clearly. This is a big step for me and I know it won't be easy, it won't always be fun, and I might end up regretting it. However, it will be exciting, it will lead to new discoveries of life, this world, and myself, and I will most likely end up loving it.
No matter what it is something I want to do and something I would regret not doing so I am going to move forward with an open-mind/heart and take things as they come.
So Korea get ready because I am coming soon...
Here is a mv from my favorite/the best member of BigBang. I love this song, the dancing, and the wonderful TaeYang. Enjoy!!!
“As I get older, I want to be someone who feels happiness in little things. When I was younger, I had a lot of ambitions and was able to do a lot of things so it was okay, but I don’t want to live like that forever. I think it’s good to be satisfied with the decisions I make with life at that particular time, and live simply. That’s all.”-Juni
"And that’s why we travel, or why we should. Not to forget our worries, which will follow us anywhere – across oceans, up mountains, through deserts, down every crowded alleyway and boulevard of the city – but simply to be somewhere else. To exist, as always; but to exist in different surroundings. What happens after that, we can never really predict.... -Unknown-
"There is not one big cosmic meaning for all, there is only the meaning we each give to our life, an individual meaning, an individual plot, like an individual novel, a book for each person." Anais Nin
"We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls." -Anais Nin
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